Bop216, 35

There are two things certain in life death and change. Im hoping change comes. Hello, my name is Brian and I am 20 years old. The idea of 2012 and what it could bring haunts my mind on the daily basis. I wish i could just have the truth, or at least, know everything the government knows. Ever since 2006, when i first started questioning God, i have been on a failing quest for the truth of who we are as a species and what our purpose on Earth is. But the only result i have to show is a weed addiction and criminal record. The last four years has been a steady stream of rejection and failure, due to the fact that my family and friends believe in God and 2012 is nothing more than Y2K to them. I've tried many times to put 2012 out of my head and just get a job and live a normal life but i can't. Everything i do i feel is absolutely useless, without point or purpose. In two years it will all mean nothing. Not just because were gonna be dead, but hopefully a new era of man kind will begin, wiping all of our slates clean. I am hoping that soon a process will begin, that will bring everyone onto the same page. Then at the same time my life becomes more and more miserable approaching 2012. I've come to this website looking for people like me. Not miserable people, lol, but people who i can talk to without feeling crazy. I listen to Coast to Coast radio so I know I'm not alone, but there is no one around here i can talk to. Anyway, i need to find a job, that way i can at least try to live a better quality of life and prepare for whatever is about to happen. Living at mom's house is nooooo fun. My aim screen name is BOPHPT im online most of the time. Good luck and be safe everyone.